My Voice Within

Dear Teacher

2012-01-01T01:50:00.000-08:00

To the dearest teachers of my heart,
....in specifric [Mr. Lim & Ms. Hui]
...i know sending a sms is not sincere....calling is not sincere
even typing this is merely as sincere as caling..
but truth to be told...
i'm just...
AFRAID to say this out loud...
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS...
but teacher, you just give me the creeps more than respect
i don't whic step i make might make me lose my job...
both of you are so good in talking...that you can talk me out into jobless society..
you always told us to be gratefull...and i thank you for that...
because of you, i built up new relationshp with my parents...
you always told us to be filial....i want to be too...
we heard stories of others saying they lost their loved ones gone away before they could spend time with themm...
i dont want to regret on the things that i didnt do...
you could see your parents and be with them everyday...
i dont want to miss out on any on that...
you guys are happy and lucky enough to have that...
i dont want to be told that i was the one who doesnt go home even i live 15 mins apart from home.
thats stupid...
i dont want to sound mean...but im just depressed and frustrated over the way you treat me,,,
it sucks...
i just want to be normal like the normals witha job.
[to be continue]

the sweetest day 342010

2010-04-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

hmmm...
went to the pj library with mum this morning to listen to dr. ramesh's talk
was an very interesting talk bout meditation..
its true that your body build up 'happy viruses' that can heal you when you bpdy is at ease..
in this busy and buzzing generations...ppl cant seem to find time for family nor themselves...
and doctors became out closest friends yet...
as a doctor (dr. ramesh) our job is to heal ppl...
but sometimes i wished my clinic/hospital could be empty for once...
the rates of patients rising each DAY is frightening...
nowadays...the best and yet the cheapest cure for all illness is...........meditation..
looking for your inner peace and putting ur body, mind and soul to ease once a while..
escape the hardcore lifestyle for 15-20 minutes..
and you'll see/feel the difference...
i myself have found my inner peace///
my hair stylist said i lost an amount of hair...
she said i was stressed...
can see the look on mum's face that she was worry..
sigh...
mum....dont u worry...im ok...=/ i really am...
a lil stress wont hurt me...=)
neways....
met up with someone special today..
my special sweet-hearted and thoughtful boss...lun~~
thx for lunch and the advance bday present...
it's truly a special present...no doubt about it...=))
hmmm....
mind me saying...
i have the most cocky smile ever...(don't get me wrong)
its...cute (in a good manly way) =p
i like your honesty...
you're easy to talk to...=))<3
hmmm....wat else...
oh yea...do ask your parents bout it(college)
not to frighten u or anything...i just don't want you or any other friends of mine to get ''cheated''
well....remember its your decision as the future lies in your hands...
you may write your own destiny...but remember...we all are writing in pen..
the mistakes you're about to write down...can't be erased..........
so...choose wisely...=)
I'll support you in whatever decision you'll make...=) (im a very loyal director, no? LOL)
well...thx agn for the sweet gift...
i love it...=) very unique
have a great day ahead yea~~
take care...
hugzz

last post for cny

2010-02-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

well....
time really flies when you're having fun.
it feels like just yesterday i said goodbye to my cousin nephew..
(which was on last sat 12feb)
and today's the 20th of feb
and tomolo night i'll be going back to my dorm.
had an one on one tutorial with mum today..
thx mum!!!
at least i know something frm the text..
and also thx to uncle eng for the help in finding a reference book =))
not forgetting 'boss'~~~~
thankx for everything =))
very grateful to have people like them in my life
this will be my last post of the week...
i dont think i'll be posting one tomolo..hmmm.
maybe.....i could....
well let's see then...hehe
neways....
dont know why...but i feel extremely tired today..
slpt in the car, relative's house...the car again..and slpt on the house couch.
but im awake now.XD
and for no blardy reasons....my left ear hurts...like....hmmm..(insert suitable word)
wow..
i just realized that im gonna miss everyone here...especially my family..
and the truth is...
i think im gonna miss u too, boss...
and of coz my crazy friends.....TAKE K AHH LIM SHEN YIN!!!!!!
bodoh punye kura2 =P (help me take k of my baba ah...)
hmmm....
wat else to blog....
think bout it later hehe....
til next time...
love ya...
miss ya...
ciaoz~~~

dream house

2010-02-19T06:50:00.000-08:00

during this cny...
i've been to whole lot of houses..
all diff kinds...
there's big ones, really big ones. and really really big ones xD
well...it might be grand and nice and big..
and it might seem like a home...
but to me...they're nothing more but a house..
maybe to them, it feels like a home..
who am i to judge right?
but this cny, ppl keep asking me bout my future.
and i really put a lot of thinking into it..
one of my relative...are really kind
its nice of them to ...hmmm...intro me to an estate with nice houses..
yes..i do want a partner..
and yes...i do wish to have a family of my own..
IN FUTURE...
and in all the houses i've been to..
my mind still remains the same..
i want my dream house..
which is...
my own home...
the one im livin' in now...=)
my parents bought this house right after i was born..
and its contracted for 70 yrs..
and the truth...
it might need a lil touching up...
but i won't mind raising a family here..=)
its convinient....safe....and...more importantly...
it feels like a home.=)
so there, my dream house is my home...=)
nothing can change my mind...
im lovin it...muackkxx!!! <3<3

to boss

2010-02-18T06:03:00.000-08:00

just wanna dedicate this whole page to boss....=))

THANK YOU!!

to boss

2010-02-18T06:01:00.000-08:00

just want to dedicate this whole page to you, boss....

THANK YOU

ignorant

2010-02-17T07:20:00.000-08:00

woke up at 9 at the only thing i heard was my LOUD neighbour.
i was upstairs but i can hear EVERY SINGLE word she said.
XD
she was inviting my mum to her 35th anniversary.
then she started to complain bout her husband....blablabla..
i was happily showerin at that moment....didn't bother a word she said
then i think she was talking on the phone...
saying wat restaurant...wat date...blablabla..
at the end of my refreshing morning shower..she went back...
then mum came up and........SIGH.......
we both looked at each other and laugh..
then she told me wat happened and that she rejected her invitation.
we had a great laugh of that..XD
then at 11, our crazy journey begins...
first stop >>> yi gu's house (pj new town) 1hr
2nd >>>>>>>>>> aunt's (melaka)house (kepong ulu)had a great melaka feast there...yum!!
got the traditional recipe!! YES!
1.ham choi ngap (salty vege + duck soup )=d
2.pickled spicy mango
3.gue'don (hou si + chick/pork + ...)
4.yok coi gai (chicken herbs soup)
lol so much to learn so little time..
braise yourself if i call u to makan at my house one day !! ngek ngek.
my mum was making a joke bout girls couldn't get married if they don't know how to cook..
-.- zzzz
such an obvious hint....
we were there for about 3 to 4 hours...
old ppl nag so much....why ah??
sigh....may god bless them...
my cousin (who is elder than me) asked my mum how to let go.
i looked at him and was like :'here, take this (hands over an empty packet)
now, let go.'' (he lets go and looks blankly at me)
'you still dun get it?'
he replied :'i know...but hw to let go?'
*faints*
ashta fila alwazimmmmm.......
forget bout it....=.=
next stop~~~~~
mum's eldest sister's house.....which was like 2 blocks away (kepong)
we gave 1 bag of biscuits as buah tangan
she gives us tree...sooooo nice xDDD
the FINALLY the last stop!!!
to sungei buloh
aunty KT's house...
had a great chat there..
were stuck for bout 3 hrs there due to pouring rain..
but it was finally cool for once after 3 days of hot and burning weather
we end up having our dinner at KFC.
it was really a finger licking good one.xD
not because of the chicken but was i gotta have dinner with my parents.=))
it would be such a great portrait xD
reached home at bout 9+pm
learnt bout my family history, my kampung's and recipes XD
still here's the quote of the day:
'No man is born stupid, just ignorant'
God is everywhere...
She/He will always be with us no matter what..
only humans make things become complicated..
ENJOY LIFE!!!

hang out on the 3rd day of cny

2010-02-16T03:23:00.000-08:00

hung out with resha and kelvin today.
was a lot of fun until i sprained my own knee///==
i dont even know how i did it..
it hurts until now..
stupid me...=.=zzzzz
first activity- karaoke WOOHOOZZ
sang our lungs out...
they call it screaming but i called it Destress-ing
XD
had a great time...
never trust the manager with your mic..
their 5 mins = to half an hour..
-.- bad bad management..== kd..
can improve la...=p
overall the songs need to be updated...
the food......2 thumbs up...
the service..maybe its a busy day la..
so i forgive them
xP
after all the DESTRESS-ing..
kita org pergi yam cha...
at purple cane which also sounds like burger king..XDDD
had to pull myself there...sadnye...
the service there was great, maybe cause my friend's friends are working there.xD
but seriously...it was better than....redbox..
cham cham....
had a salad and tea...
overall bill...RM11 lol..
but then thanks to Zhi Bin..
we only had to pay RM8..
-.- feel awkward but...THANKX ZHI BIN!! owe u one!
now i gotta get ready for tomorrow.
cause according to mum.....
its gonna be a crazy day....but more ang paus xP
looking forward to tomorrow and hopefully my knee gets better..
==

family :: stay strong ::

2010-02-15T02:56:00.000-08:00

what is family?
according to lilo and stitch...
ohana means family and family means no one get left behind or forgotten..
i know i might sound childish...
but to think of it..
the relatives i once knew....are all different now..
maybe because when we were young, we didnt know what are money, standards or property..
well...i guess this is reality..
when time passes...humans change (well some of them)
but i can't believe my ears and eyes..
when....the one that i once look up to ..looked down on me...for years..
just because i came from a not so wealthy family..
its all so funny...
someone that i haven't met for over 6 yrs..
underestimates me infront of my mum and others...
without knowing what i'm capable of...
the funny part? i kept silent....
listening to your every sickin' word..
i really felt like rebelling..
but what's the use? that wouldn't change my status in ur mind..
well..
this is wat i gotta say...
better listen carefully or in this case read...
i.....mcms...
thank you...for what u have said..
your words might be hurtful and it might bring another person down.
but it just makes me stronger...
maybe your right? who knows..
i still have a lot in me that i haven't discover..
you're right....
i gotta improve..
everyone's going overseas..and im staying put in s'pore..
that's not enough...
thank you..
i'll work harder..
thanks alot..

special thanks just for you

2010-02-14T20:44:00.000-08:00

just opened my msn...
saw a touching and sweet msg from someone..
really happy to see your reply..
=)
happy valentine's to you too~~
hope to really say it to u X)
its ok that you didn't reply my msg EARLY..
at least u did read em' and u did replied at the end..
even though we are at our separate ways...
and we don't see each other that often..
u always manage to cheer me up at the right time..
=X
coincidence? creepy? XD
thx boss~~~
miss ya...
take care =))

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<3 from your always loyal employee <3

2nd day of new yr

2010-02-14T20:18:00.000-08:00

2nd day of new year...wow...
how time flies...
went to kai ma's house yesterday..
alot had changed...
miss her soo soooo much..my dai kor...went to klang..
lil bro slping..
only yi kor was there...
still rmb he broke his leg in dec...
then when i went yesterday...he got up and open the gate for me..
i was so shocked that i gone speechless..
lol...
then the fellow still dare to drink cold water and eat sea food..and all those crap..
haiz...make ppl wry oni...
oh yea...yesterday evening my sister came..
saw wai kit after several years..
wat a big boy he is...
age 13 height 158 ...
almost taller than me....gasp...
dai ko zai already....TvT
i sound like an old lady XD
ku jie oso came yesterday..
had a long chat bout my college and my boss..
-.-
dun get wats so interesting..
just want things to be normal...like it used to...
makan ... chat... tv.... chat...main...chat...ciao..XDDD
ok la....not bad la...
at least gt sth to talk bout...
wonder wat will happen today...hmmmm
looking forward to it...=D
aza aza fighting!!!

happy valentine n happy cny 10'

2010-02-12T23:51:00.000-08:00

one more day to cny/ valentine day..
well...screw valentine...i need money!! XD
just kiddin
gong xi fa CAI to EVERYONE
n happy valentine to ....
mummy...
daddy...
my super family...
you...
n you who are reading...=D
kenny , my cousin nephew just went to australia last night
sad..
no more night movies n night lepak's..
I'LL MISS YOU!!!
lol..
alot said i changed....
more pretty i guess.XD
miss evryone here..
hope to see n hang out with everyonr soon
tidak sabar><
lol
just cleaned my house, do chores...
wow....
quite tiring..
but worth it...
my home glows now.lol..
happy to see my family up n well =D
more to come this few days.
stay reading lol

babi's

2010-01-03T05:39:00.000-08:00

yesterday grandpa was submitted to the hospital and was in a coma..
he was placed in the emergency ward...
his breathing tube keeps coming off..
my mum, my aunt and i were not familiar with those instruments
so we might as well called for assistants..
the nurses were BABI's...
haizz....
i called you because it was something i couldnt deal with and it WAS an EMERGENCY..
they were like '' okok...nanti nanti..." then continues chatting
i was very uncomfortable with the way they answered..
then after 5 mins they didnt come..
i again went there to talk to the nurses bout the problem
they gave me the same answer....
im getting very pissed off..
after 5 mins...they did not show up...
thanks to a KIND family of malay at the opposite bed,
i found the emergency button,...
i pressed it and they came..
i look at time like one kind..
they dare not look at me..
2 of them were pregnant women..
to me...if you get pregnant, dont come to work
stay home and stay out of everyone's way..=.=
stupid lazy nurses...
one of them walked in after a few mins tryin to act all professional..
i asked ' die ok ke? sawan die kan infect otak die ke?'
she was like ' tak la u tak tau jgn kata la, die ni strok la dik'
my god if that was strok then we wont be moving both his hands and legs right?!?!
idiots..
cert u beli ke?????!?!? WTH?!?!
today morning, mom went to visit grandpa at 6 in the morning
as usual i was still in dream land
when she came back at 3,
she told me the nurses who treated me n other patients with no respect yesterday
kena kantoi by the chief doctor..
lmao...
serve them right...
the doctor said and was shouting at the nurses saying that my grandpa really got sawan(epilepsy) not strok..
bone heads..-.- otak rendang!
go back to school you good for nothing babi's GRRR
then the rest was history...
the nurses were set to other departments and my mum said the new nurses were much nicer..=)
lucky
grandpa, get well soon...
forgive and forget
amitabha~

2010

2010-01-02T21:16:00.000-08:00

happy new year everyone...
new year new goals new dreams~
i definately got mine =)
new year was full of surprises indeed =D
i think i might do well too xD
the best thing bout new year was
baba called me and was shouting in my ear xD
and the msgs from everyone..
thankx y'all
well, as for the rest...
i wish y'all a prosperative new year =D
and for US...
lets see what had God and the future installed for us =)
all the best to everyone and myself XD
muacks

KC babies REUNION!!! 2009

2009-12-30T05:22:00.000-08:00

30th Dec 2009
the kc babies reunite!@!!
woohoozz
first gathering after 5 years wei...
everyone changed leh...
so hot,and tall...and attractive =p
xD
today's reunion included sui lun, yewho, steph, steph's hottie, jess, janine, cwen,yok man, joyce, renlord
love this ppl byk2
so much has changed....
do wish the second reunion could include more ppl..
although everyone has their diff path now...
but hopefully our bound never change X)))
i miss u guys so much now...=D
see everyone soon!

on the 3rd day of xmas. =)

2009-12-27T06:31:00.001-08:00

went to perm my hair today =D
it looks kinda puffy (not the way i expected)
but according to the hair stylist, it will straighten and should look like the way i imagined it in about a week or so...
so....yea...i'm temporary lil miss puffy XD
after 4hrs of butt cramping, back aching....
mum and i were off to leisure mall...
to watch Bodyguards and Assasins (BG&As) =D
the movie was packed but we managed to get sits (front role sits)
it was A NECK-ACHING EXPERIENCE!!!!
i myself would have enjoyed the movie FULLY...
IF!!!!!!! the babi's behind me would stop talking and KICKING my chair?!?!
i was soooo pissed off after the movie...
its like a row of malays sitting behind me..
im not being racist or anything but...............
'kalau nak panggil kite org babi, jgn lah pandai sgt pgi tonton wayang org babi dengar skrip org babi yang dsediakan oleh org babi yang jugak dtonton oleh SEMUA org babi!?@!?!@!$#%^&* bodoh bapa tak ajar kau org manners dlm panggung wayang..CICAK KAU!'
phew....sorry la...they were like...getting on my nerves..
they act like its their father's house only...
answering their phone in the cinema in the middle of the movie..
then making !@#$%^&*() noise during the show...
kicking chairs !@#$%^&*()
LAUGHING!!!! when ppl DIE!!!!
WTH!?!?!
tunggu i sembelih leher kau baru tu i tengok u ketawa ke tak!
bodoh sial..
ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.....
Leisure Mall : screw the movie and lets go shopping..
its like a shopping paradise for shop-a-holic like my mum n i XD
but too bad we had no time...
after the movie we went back n took dad out for dinner..
righttttttttttt.....behind my house XD
(gou gei)in cantonese
we ordered fish...toufu...some vege and chicken~
yum yum yum~!
delicious~!
i still can feel the fish swimming in my intestine...
*that sounds wrong..*but u know wat i mean la..
XD
overall except the movie part..
my day was great =D
hope everyone had a happy day today =))

never regret; but do LEarn

2009-12-25T21:55:00.001-08:00

one day, a friend of mine sent me a question, saying
If you had a chance to go back to your past and u could change one thing about it, what would it be?
without hesitating i answered: NOTHING
a simple reason for the answer i gave...
if i hadn't been hurt in an relationship, i will never learn to love and give
if i hadn't fallen down, how will i learn to get up again?
if i hadn't failed, how will i be strong enough to fight for success?
everything in the past was a lesson...
everyone in this world has to go through it..=)
it might be hard,
it might be painful,
it might even cause u deep injuries..
but the deeper the wound...
the brighter your future..
never regret what had already happened..
but learn from it.
=))
live life to the fullest and you will never have a boring day in your life..
be happy...give n love to the max so you'll never fall back too far...=)

special thx~

2009-12-25T07:24:00.000-08:00

SPECIAL THX TO KENNY FOR FIXING MY OLD CACAT BLOG TO THIS BEAUTIFUL DESIGN =)))
THANK YOU!!!!!!!
and thank you to the people who made my day today =)
who are mr lim, ms hui, ms lim, ms jiexi, ms kong, ms yip and mr woo..AND!
MUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love you all sooo sooo much!
today's a special day not coz its xmas but coz i got to spent it with you guys =))

OVER THE MOON!!!

2009-12-24T07:01:00.000-08:00

wow, its xmas eve, ppl!!!!!
woohoozzzz!!!! one more hour it will be xmas!!!!
watching a movie with mum tomolo...
today jam like.....XXXXXXX (insert word)
ohhhh.......SUPPER!!!! be back soon to continue~~~~
ngek ngek

holiday

2009-09-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

raya holiday is here....
wooohooo!!!!
thx to them i got to relax at home goyang kaki after a head aching trialss...
i'm gonna have loads of fun this week no matter what..
cause when i get back..
pn ting will be pissing off on everyone...
woohooo~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant wait.(being sarcastic)....=.=
gonna have fun fun fun~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy birthday cheong~

2009-09-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

Today's Wai Cheong's 17th birthday. Short brife of what happened before the eat-cake ceremony..lol..went to mid at 2pm with Yuet Nam and Chia Han who was broke..lol..watched 'Up' to pass our time...(waiting for WC to finish his tuition classes)

Then after the movie, we went to RT Pastry to get the cake below...no offence but the strawberries was damn SOUR....><>

this is the sour strawberry cake i was talking bout...forgot to bring lighter =.= luckily there was a malay dude who was kind enough to borrow us his...=D TQ malay dude!
his 'walao eh' face lol...n kah hoe's 'diam diam n cut the cake' face...lol
Fuze...trying to snap a pic of the delicious cake that i bought....=p
wonder whats so facinating inside there.....hmmmmmm =p
just have to upload this....what a SWEET and LOVING couple ^^ awww-ness
haha cake-smashed face! =p artwork by yours truly =p
finally he cuts the cake....=))
Yuuuuummmmmmmm
Trying to act cute before......
......before she got 'smashed...' LOL!!!
yea yea....I got smashed too....=p pic of both of us..,^^
and of course to snap a pic with the birthday boy ^^
sour strawberry!!!!
they both are just damnnn hard sweet....even when they fight its adorably cute!!!
hmmmm...awwwwwwww =p
i wonder what was he trying to do...lol
Kah Hoe trying to do something to his plate i think...lol
it was a full moon that night....and wat a wonderful bright full moon it was...=)
walking towards our next destination....eXc Internet Cafe..lol
Kah Hoe-The couple- Fuze lol ^^

Then later we spent our time in cc for 2 hours...^^ the boys enjoying their GG-ing while Liying and I was busying with msn, fb-ing and girl;s stuff...^^

everyone went back by 11 ^^ i hoped everyone had a great time...especially the birthday fatty ^^ <3 cheong =")

We, your friends are always by your side. Promise~~~

pain?

2009-08-22T06:27:00.000-07:00

nowadays...stress keeps getting on to me..

especially when its the big year for me..

everything doesn't seem to go into place...

now...

all i need is just someone to go to and talk..

and just hang out...you get what i mean?

haizz.

why...why now? why only now i feel this way?

really tired of this..

i don;t even want to go to my work place anymore..

the so called happiest place i could be..

but now...i don;t even want to step a foot in....

i miss them all...

i really do..

but i keep having a thought that the longer i stay the harder it is for me to let go..

i need to focus on other things now..

like my family...

my studies....

and a lot more..

not to say im unhappy with the life i have now...

and im not complaining..

its just that..

im only a girl...a teenager that still need to make mistakes to learn..

and most importantly...

i'll get tired...

with a lot of things to hold back..

i have to be strong infront of family...especially for my parents..

i love them so so much...

i don;t want them to worry because of me..

i don't want them to fuss bout my problem,..

but i hope i could have someone to go to and talk to ..

but when that time came..

all i could do is...cry..

i know i sound like a cry baby..

but what can i do..

try holding everything inside..until you couldn't hold it back anymore..

and you just burst into tears..

its hard to put yourself back together.....

haiz...

day by day..

2009-08-17T05:57:00.000-07:00

day by day pn. ting's patients getting thinner and thinner...

haiz....tim ah tim...time to grow up, seriously...

she taught me for 5 years..and i respect her..even though she screams and yells like a maniac..

but she's always thinking bout us..=o

you guys suppose to be more considerate la..

haiz..

day by day 'her' attitude getting worse and worse...

omgosh girl, not that i want to make you look bad..which...you;re already doing it yourself perfectly..

but...as a classmate i seriously hope and pray that you could change..

you're hurting everyone around you..

especially your friends..

you say you're sad and lonely...well...why do you feel that way?

why you think we avoid you...my oh my..

you got everything you want..

why cant you just appreciate it..

you have everything that i wanted..even...u know..

it hurts to see what you gained is what you waste...you disgust me..

can't believe you could do all those things...

FYI...you destroy your own good name...the name which your mother gave you..

you can do whatever you pleased to break me...

but believe me...im not one to mess with..

and take my word : I will haunt and hunt you down...if you ever come across me or my friends or AnyOne dear to me...i swear! i'll never let you go if you do...i meant what i say and i'll do what i said.~!

so dont you mess with me...if you ever read this and think im threatenin you...then girl, you better hide...>=c

change channel..............................

.........................................................

day by day..

im droping to a deeper hole..

so deep that i couldnt hold on any longer..

just wished to have more time to know 'him'

in god's will i hope i will...><

now...all i can think is my family..

i love them too much to see them sob..

couldnt even bare thinking bout it..

this breaks my heart..

so scared..

so scared of leaving..

so scared of facing this alone..

so scared of seeing you..

so scared.......so so scared..

give me this chance, this one last chance to have something to care and love...

so that when the time comes...

i wont feel like i wasted my life...

appreciate life...its full of wonderful things and sights..

things and sights...that you couldnt even imagine...how beautiful they are...until the last minute comes...

dont wait til the last minute...act now...

Siao Siao!!!!! 180709

2009-07-18T06:34:00.000-07:00

went to bandar sri petaling today wit gor....aka siao gor lol..................it starts as so.......

on my way to bbsp...and all of a sudden traffic jam =.=

cam whoring begins here

was frustrated wit the jam and gor's msgs n miss calls. xp

err....did not took any pics there....too many seafood...=x

for the last 5 tokens, gor used it in a ball shooting game...

gor scored 8 points over 10...(congrats) and got a siao siao..(pic shown at the end of blog..lol)

then later we went mv...

got bored....all movies start at 6 =.=

and you couldnt believe the line in mid...omg

then we went to boarders then our last stop...

TOYS'R US!!!!!!!!!!!

bought my new cube!

also spoted some new rubiks...

mirror blocks...

4 x 4 Oo

5 x 5 x.X

oh yea....and this crazy chick...lool

stupid gor snapped this when i was trying out my new cube..lol

oh yea....and not forgeting SIAO SIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

had a great day today.....thanks to gor...^^

and SIAO SIAO!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY

2009-07-14T04:39:00.000-07:00

er...nothing special...just bought a cake from RT for mum =)

its a nice looking cake before we dig in...=D

and its yummy too ^^

love you mum...

happy birthday !!!

muackxx

challenge

2009-07-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

there was a motivation speech in school the other day...

and i remembered the guy asking :' whats the MOST important thing in your life? '

stop tp think of it...we didnt actually have the time to realize that...

was it family? friends? money? career? ............

different people with loads of different answers..

I brought this thought back home...

and the outcome...was really......err....undescrbable...zZZZzzzz

my answer was challenge...

well....to me life is already the biggest challenge...

everyone is facing challenge of staying alive...and protecting their family...

and some are facing challenges in their career...

as u can see...everything we do we face the same thing - challenge...

and with challenge, we grow stronger...

we will fall and fail at times....but eventually we crawl back up to reach the top...

this is what challenges are for...

the bring out the best of us...

~WITHOUT~

2009-07-04T06:17:00.000-07:00

without...you...

at first i though i was going to lose...

without you...

i thought i couldn't love no more..

without you...

without you.~~~~~

i thought of all negative stuff...

but now~~

its all clear...

this is faith...

and the real thing that made me want u..

is because i love seeing you being happy..

and i WAS making you happy..

but days gone by..

and our chemistry gone weaker...

its the end of the chart now....and your gone..

and,,,,

i've moved on...

seeing u happy with her...is more then enough to make me realize..

that i must let go.,,

now, that your happy...i feel glad...

the once foolish me...is gone..

gone and being a better person..

i figured out so much...since your gone..

and i found so much...

and gained so much....

i do miss you from time to time..

but our love will b kept in our memories only..

there it will be , the place it belongs..and nothing more..

thank you for the moments..

and i forgive you for 'those' moments..

and im sorry for 'that' moment..

growing up and moving on..

still walking with my head held high..

learning from my past and gaining for my future...

without you......................

now,

im fine~

~obsession~

2009-06-08T06:07:00.001-07:00

Obsession.....

people like teenagers have obsessions...and its normal...

everyone has it...

some for shoes..

some for mobile phones...

some for clothes...

food....

books.....

perfume....

cars....

etc.....u name it......

its just apart of life u see...

well....as for me...

im obsessed with,,,,,,,,

WATCHES~~~

^^ just to show you some of the watches im dying to get~~~

SHEEN

G-ms (BABY-G)

FUTURIST

G-SHOCK

BABY-G

obsession

2009-06-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

baby-G

bravo to the unexpected

2009-06-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

1 june 2009...

first Science Course EVER held by the Science and Math club

at first we thought it will be a boring day..

cause (no offence) timothy is planning the whole camp...

but the unexpected had happened today..

we actually had a lot of fun in the so called camp...

learnt a lot of things from it...

AMAZING....lol

besides all this scientific things...i too found out some 'things' as well..

tht is also unexpected...

just hoped today would never end..

cause it was the only time tht we could actually be together in a group n have fun

this i can say is a vry memorable say for everyone...

no matter what happened...every body put their differences aside n just had fun..

really proud of u guys... keep it up~!!!!

360

2009-05-17T03:15:00.000-07:00

now that im working and busy with pandu stuff..

i feel more and more....how can i put this....relaxed?

just to take my mind off of him...

and evryday in class..

just to see him happy with HER...

although it stings...but as long as he's happy right?

btw....i found something that i love again...but this time...

im sure that it wont go away...

its my job..

the people there just treat me like family...

and i will safe with them...i know that they'll never hurt me..

and plus...i get to be with kids..which i love...

for sure there'll be some ups and downs..but it wont hurt that bad..

he's just my past...who cares whether its bad or good..

but it had made everything clear to me..

so much i have lost and so much i have found..

now that im stronger....i'll keep on searching...

for what? im still not sure...

but i believe i'll get it one day dont care how long it takes...

for now...i'll just keep YOU as my lil secret...

and our friendship will never end...cause i'll keep you in a safe distance..=)

where we can be friends forever..

just wana say thank you to those had help me go through my weakest moments..

and to the people in 360...may god bless you all..

and to you...sarangheyo......shhhhhhhh...

friday of 1309

2009-04-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

why does it all have to end like this..

this is mad...

this sucks...alot

really thought u were the one...

i believed it...

until.....i saw u walking and talking with her'

as friends i suppose..

but my guess was right from the beginning

u found someone to replace me..

and yet im still here standing alone in the rain..

afraid to step in a game again...

afraid of getting hurt like so...

things around certainly changed since ur gone...but...

my heart.....is still the same...

stupid~!!! everyday ii scold myself..

was is something i said and done?

i trusted you...i believed in you and in us...

but alwiz...im the one who end up in this kind of situation..

i feel so stupid to believe in myself...

i dont know whats right or wrong or up or down..

confusion feels my head

as you went to spread.

trying to let go.,..not trying hard enough i guess...

so sick...of everything that reminds me of you.,..

i hate you so much that i love you~!

wat the hell man~!

this sucks...

why does this scene keeps happening agn and agn...???

its a cruel flash back of everything in my life...

just wished you could have gave me a better reason..

....im just playing myself....

as i write this here today...

i....dont know what i want or what will happened..

but one thing for sure,...it doesnt include you..

i'll move on...and mayb live a life that is much more satisfying,,

but i'll never forget us...

thats a cruel and yet sad fact...

but believe me....

what goes around comes around.

i'll be smiling and laughing..

but inside its shreading into pieces..

i'll hide the pain and go along..

do the things that i once loved..

never letting you see how pain it feels..

i'll live on...til my end of time,,

at my desperate time of need i realized who are the friends for keeps...

true friends shows in hard cruel times..

you'll be amazed who i chose...

as i was amazed myself...

but here i need to thank you too...

for giving me the time of my life and now i have bundle of time..

to realize what i've missed..

to all who is reading this.,..

heres an advice...

live everyday like its your last..

as noone knows when its our last...

only the Writer Himself knows the ending..

Big Bang

2009-02-07T05:10:00.000-08:00

DETAILSS::

~G-Dragon~

Group Leader
Name : Kwon Jiyong

Bday : 18*8*1988

Horoscope : Leo

Height :177cm

Weight :58kg

Blood type: A

Hometown : Seoul

Family Members: Parents and elder sister

Hobbies: drawing, listening to music

Talents: Rapping, Beatbox, Dance, writing lyrics, singing, (language)English and Chinese

Solos: 'This Love', 'But I Love You', 'Only Look At Me part.2'

!~T.O.P~!

Rapper/Beatboxer

Name : Choi Seung Hyun

Bday : 4*11*1987

Horoscope : Scorpio

Height 181cm

Weight :65kg

Blood type: B

Family members: parents, elder sister

Hometown : Seoul

Talents : rapping, beatbox, writing lyrics

Favourite food : rice =)

Most priceless thing to him: Family, BigBang, Friends

Solos : 'Pretend Nothing Had Happened', 'Big Boy', 'NO DIGGITY'

*~Tae Yang~*

Vocal/Rapper/cheorographer

Name : Dong Youngbae

Bday : 18*5*1988

Horoscope : Taurus

Height: 174cm

Weight: 62kg

Blood type : AB

Family members: parents, elder brother

Hobbies: basketball, listening music, watching tv

Talents : rapping, dance, beatbox, writing lyrics, (language)English and japanese

Solos : 'Hot'

&~Dae Sung~&

Vocal

Name : Kang Daesung

Bday : 26*4*1989

Horoscope : Taurus

Height 176cm

Weight: 63kg

Bloodtype : O

Family members: Parents , elder sister

hometown : Seoul

Talents : Singing, (language)English

Solos: 'Try to Smile', 'Nal Ba Gwisoon'

Tv Series : 'Family Outing'

0~Seung Ri~0

Vocal 'cheorographer

Name : Lee Seung Hyun

Bday : 12*12*1990

Horoscope : Sagutarius

Height: 174cm

Weight: 62kg

Blood type : A

Talents : Singing, Dance, Swimming

Interests: Dance, Cheorographing

Family members: parents, younger sister

Idol: Kim Jun Siu

Solos : 'The Second Day', 'Strong Baby'

w850

2009-02-07T05:05:00.001-08:00

7-2-2009
so called baby's happiest day
he bought a new phone today...
so called dream phone..for a very reasonable price...
happy for him...
now if only he stops kutuk=ing me i lagi happy.
=.,=

what a new year

2009-01-30T22:04:00.000-08:00

what a new year this is...
i cant go out...i cant hangf out with friends...the worse of all i can get out~!
what tears my heart is that you cant even be there for me...
since sunday i been no where but home,,,
ppl say home sweet home..
it is...dun get me wrong..i love myt home..
but i dun wana be 24/7 cooped up in here..
im a human more importantly I AM A TEENAGER~!!!!!!!!!
i need fresh air///
i need someone tht i can socialize with...
watch tv? NO...play computer? NO...sleep? NO~!
I WANA GET OUT OF HERE,,,
i cant seem to do anything right....
since 24/1 i get scolded til today..
WTF~!!! wtf u wan me to say and do?~??~!@$#@#$!@#
if u wan me to do something i'll be happy to..
BUT NOT BY YELLING OR COMMANDING!!
when im feeling blue i turn to u..but this week..u werent there at all..
i feel lost..really lost..
is like no one could help me...i couldnt say anything to anyone...
i get bored and lonely...and all u can say is...
'THATS LIFE GET ON WITH IT..''
i was shocked...really shocked....
thats not life...thats torture...
as for you..............you've changed........
its wierd to see u like this....
i once was found...but...now im lost...again........
i need my life back...

intro to BIG BANG

2009-01-29T05:46:00.001-08:00

real name : kwon ji yong

stage name : G-Dragon

bday : 18-8-1988

blood type : A

height: 170cm

weight: 54kg

FAMILY:Father,Mother,& Older Sister

HOBBYS:Working Out,Sleeping,Listening To Music
TALENT:Rap, Dancing,Writing Music
WHAT HE LIKES:Clothes, Hats,Shoes,Accessories
WHAT HE DOESN'T LIKE: Rainy Days
RELIGION:Christian
DEBUT: 2001 KOREA, Hip Hop Flex Album
FAVORITE MUSICIANS:50CENT, Justin Timberlake, Nelly,Bow Wow, YG Family
FAVORITE LYRIC:"Oh Shit!!"
FAVORITE COLORS: Black, Sky Blue,Yellow
TYPE OR GIRL HE LIKES: Kind, Stylish, Cute, and one that Connects with him.

{The Start...}

As the youngest kid rapper ever to feature in the album ‘2001 Korea Hip Hop Flex’ at the age of twelve, G-Dragon created a buzz with his impressive gifted talents. After joining the YG Family and becoming the youngest family member, G-Dragon has collaborated in the many albums of artists such Wheesung, Perry and YG Family 2. He is the next generation’s leading rapper.

real name : Choi Seung Hyun

stage name: T.O.P

bday :

su jung

2009-01-29T05:22:00.001-08:00

feeling happy today...i was kinda down since last night coz of sth happened...
but when today my mom ajak me out (unusual) we talked like friends and went jalan jalan like human beings....-.-
i told her bout wats going on in my life now..like new idol...
new style...new personality...
and surprisingly she accepted it...TT so touched..
recently i was moved by the korean band 'Big Bang' they're so cute and so hawt~~
so hard to resist~~^^
we went to a mall nearby our house..
we saw a new book shop...i insisted my mum to went in to have a look...
i wanted to learn korean language...but the words are all so difficult..
luckily for me..i met a korean family whose daughter came to malaysia to study..
shes 16 which make her my tong seung(younger sister)
they moved to malaysia 2 years ago but still new to the lifestyle here..
my mum was kind enough to invite them to our home to have dinner..
they accepted..the daughter's name Su Jung was learning mandrin...lucky for her..we know mandrin...teehee...
so we taught her mandrin and Su Jung taught me korean...
HAPPY>.......
so now ...learning korean...
thx to my korean omoni and aboji and of course my tong seung...<3>
sa lang hae y'yo~~!!!!!!!!!
and kam sa ha mi da~!!!
happy~~~~~
off to korean we go...
wait for me big bang~!!!!!

nal bwa nal bwa gwisoon~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sin fan

2009-01-26T06:03:00.000-08:00

i feel down and so disturb by my own emotion...
my head orders me to do 1 but my heart tells me to do 2
i cant get out frm this fantasy.
although its beautiful but it aint healty
im going crazy.....
i need help or just someone to talk to...
i'm slowly drowning in my own fantasy...
i cant get out...
still searching a way to safe myself...
will someone help...
i scream and scarem but....noone hears me...
i cant differentshade which is real and which is false...
weeping away in an unknown world...
an unknown world filled with love and peace...
but those are not real~~i need to get a grib of myself...
im falling....falling.......
falling into his eyes.......into his mind..........into his world..............
who can safe me? before....its too late

happy chinese niU year

2009-01-26T05:58:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese Niu Year to all the chinese n non chinese...
this is a date to celebrate...
forget all the bad and welcome all the good...
may God bless every one of you~
wishing everyone a prosperity and healthy year~~~~
GONG XI FATT CHAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23-10-2008 10.30pm

2008-10-25T04:49:00.000-07:00

i really hate this day..
the cruelest day ever...
the day i witness death..
how short is life....
my baby kevin left this world with a few struggle...
b and mom told me its time to let go...
i understand that life will come to aan end one day...
but i never thought that it will be this soon..
i loved him so much...
its just too soon and too sudden..
how can i ever replace you with other PETS..
im so afraid to love again...
i don wan to bring it back just to see them go again...
GOODBYE can never be said in a right time........
you were my baby...
you were everything to me...
i can tell you anything when i have no one to turn to
but nopw...you're gone...gone to a better place
leaving me here alone..
now i really feel alone..
i miss you kevin~
i miss you~~
i'll never forget you~

wheee

2008-10-25T04:45:00.000-07:00

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY~!!! its finally over...
exam is over~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all the late night studies...
all the stress...
all the headaches...
ALL OVER~!!!!!!!!!!!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
BUT~~~
the worst is yet to come....
the results T.T
this time im doomed~
well...i better live my last breath before i die`~~
x.x
hope everyone else gets good results ^^
all the best to you all~!!!!

happy birthday dear~!

2008-09-05T06:38:00.000-07:00

september 5, baby's birthday...today was suppose to be suprising but someone go see my wallet wor....grrr...nautghty~! ^^ before school ends the guys gave baby a lil birthday present>>

it took us about 45 minutes going backk to pj and coming back to school again...but at least we made it on time...but a lot of people had gone by tahat time...sorry to those who din get the cake~~the ake was beautiful...when we finally got back to school, everyone was ready...we sang a birthday song..and alicia and alynna made birthday cards for daddy...how sweet~~^^ thanks babies~the cake was really beautiful..i went to get my phone to take pictures of it..but when i got back...it turned into thiss....=.= fffffffwell...i guess theres no need to ask whos hungry..lol...one second later...there were flyin cakes everywhere...its not hard to find out one of the 'penganas' >>

LOL...lil dirty baby~~lol...the first one was kong piaw who started the whole thing~=.= thanks a lot..baby was ALL covered with cream and cake and thanks to him I am too~=.=my face isnt that red..(special effects from the cream lol~!) well..it wasnt fair that i couldnt give him the surprise i wanted...so i planned another surprise for him tonight. with the help of my gals..siew yee and chyan yan...thanks guys~ and of course not forgetting our lovely tuition teacher who lend us his time and room,lol^^tq~! it was successful as just like i imagined it...thanks guys~!!!

few more days

2008-09-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

just a few more days til soo's birthday...i'm really nervous for no reason...whoever reads this i hope that y'all can stay back this friday to come and celebrate together...i hope he'll like the preparation i made...
WISH ME LUCK~

~this is to you~

2008-08-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

this is to you dear...
i know although v fight most of the time..but i really love you..i really do...i meant everything i say...your the apple of my heart...and none of that will ever change..i mean it...you're the best thing that have ever happened to me...
somehow andi dont know why...sometimes i'm afraid of losing you even though you'd remind me over and over agn that you'll never leave me.. i guess i couldnt imagine the pain i'll face of losing you..thats why i've been very annoying for the past few days/ weeks...i just want you to remember all the moments we are together..even though its annoying, and sometimes piss u off..i just want you to remember that.,.cause i will certainly remember my moments with you for the rest of my life...
i've dated a few guys in the past but that is the past you are the present and the future..and yes i do want a future with you...i believe in you..i trust you...i just want you...your the only one i can count on of giving me joy...you give me hope...you gave me so much than my family...i was lost but now i'm found thats toi you...i dont want a friend that saying they love but dont mean it to spend their rest of their life with me..i just want a best friend that can laugh with me and at me and go through hard moments with me even if its very very hard...and YOU"RE the best friend i always wanted and more....you'd gave me all the things to please my little heart...thank you thank you and thank you~
I LOVE YOU~
remember......i just want a best friend that can laugh with me and AT me~i just want someone to go to and laugh with..and go through hard times with me...k?
i hope you know what im talking bout...=) i also like childish fat cows =p

7708801314520

4 sc 2 a.k.a 4 sc ZOO~

2008-07-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

4 sc 2 is the only place i wana be in this 2 years...as for the people in it..they are the ones i want to be with for the rest of my life...

4sc 2 also known as 4 sc zoo is so called the dirty, lots of talk about, noisiest, brings problem, science class in SMKDP.

although our class had been lecture many times from teachers and cousellors..but yet i never lost interest in being in this class and being with the people in it..

4 sc zoo is like a fruit basket..you'll never know wat you're gonna get...maybe strawberries or mangoes or durians or even bad apples..

set things straight

2008-07-15T05:00:00.001-07:00

i thought i will regret this day but the thing is...i actually enjoyed my day today as a normal student..the days without stress and worries that is.
but now theres another thing thats really really bothering me..that is the RUMOURS...
i thought i was over this..until today..comon' u all know that im no quitter...i understand why the rumours spread..but i couldn't believe my eyes and ears when u knew who started it...
it was VERY dissapointing...and it is VERY VERY LOW even for the person who started it...(you should know better~! shame on you~!)
what is more dissapointing is the ones who believed it and spread it...y'all should knw me better than this...
i have my reasons..and its not because im afraid or just being negative..
if youre really my friend then you'll believe me when i say i will be back~!
if you dont believe me then stand a side...AND WATCH ME..
im not the kind that will be pushed around by ANYONE~!
just want you to know that i really put all my heart and soul into this thing...
but thanks to certain people..all my hardwork is ruin~
not to be rude but find something else better to do with your life~
one who spread lies about other people to get to the top is the lowest people in the universe~!
remember this~

15/7/08

set things straight

2008-07-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

14/7/08 resigned

2008-07-14T05:08:00.000-07:00

to my fellow librarians...
today 14/7/08 i had made my final decision to resign as a librarian once an for all..
i have no regrets to my decision.
the reason of my decision is not because of the post. so please stop spreading rumours...
im sick and tired of rumours...get a life people..
in this 3/4 years i didn't meant to hurt anyone..if i did..im sorry..please forgive me..
and in this few years time. I WORKED hard to get to the top..I did not USE ANYONE to get to the top..
my love is true..and my hardwork is all real.
the reason i resigned is because i'm falling ill from a disease..im taking these time to treat it and i want to spend more time with my family, which i had been ignoring because of business..
i just want to use this left over time to do what i had left out doing..
working in the library with all the seniors and juniors had been a lot of fun...
i learnt a lot from them.
i thank you all for giving me the time of my life...
i didn't want to leave as this is a sudden..but as my body is getting weaker each day..i find it impossible to complete my duty in the library...
i didnt want anyone to know about this...so why did i come clean now?
i just want to set straight everything...
i did not resign because i was upset and displease with the result of the post
i did not resign because of HIM..
i did not resign because if the unfairness from the teachers,,
although i leave with undying heart..but i cannot do anything...
i will really miss y'all...as we had share a lot of memories together..
after you read this i just want u to know that i don wan any special treatment or sympathy..
i just wan to be treated fair and as usual...
even though im no longer a librarian doesn't mean im not melissa choy~! =)
im always the crazy girl in 4 sc 2...
before i end this...i just want to say sorry to anyone that i had hurt for the past years.and thank you to all my friends that had supported me over the years...
my heart is always with y'all...my spirit is always in the library...hope y'all find new and fresh inspiration..
i know y'all will do well with or without me ^^

once a librarian alwayz a librarian (eventhough just in heart) =p

~~~~~~~Melissa~~~~~~

!!!SMKDP SUX!!!

2008-07-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

basically SMKDP dont suck its just most of the teachers in it. brainless fuck-tards~! not to be rude but I cant help it~! you all are just blind and just stupid..u all are great teachers with brilliant mind.(at least most of you'all) but you just use your eyes to decide...you dont use your brains at all???
all this years of hard work...non of it being paid off...you ask us to respect y'all but wat bout us? we are hyuman beings too..if you learn to respect us you'll find it more easier to communicate wit us..
like you all said you all was once a teenager like us...USE YOUR BRAIN!!! and think..! wat were you like in those days? rebelious? naughty? or maybe you are always the hard working but never gets anything in repay...or maybe you are the one putting your hopes and looking at it crashing down infront of you...
Ever had that feeling??
you all know what its like...i know you have your own responsibility....and so do we...but its not wrong to have fun and USE YOUR BRAIN ONCE IN A WHILE!@!!@!!
its wrong to judge a person if you DONT REALLY know them...you dont know the pain that we are going through because of y'all...you tried that before in your years...so why do you want to pass it down to us?
because of your actions..it will be pass down to generations. ending up we only have one person to blame...
im upset because of y'all...i've put my heart and soul to everything i did for .....but at the end...(sigh) u all disgust me~!
you all have no rights to hurt anyone like that~!!!!!!!! this scar wil remain in me forever~!!!

bullshit to the teachers who had hurt my feelings and my spirit~!!
you're in my list~!

please~><

2008-07-04T07:48:00.000-07:00

i duno how to put it but im very upset and very dissapointed. i thought you were the 1 who ask to give him a chnce? which i did.
no offence but u're really a lil bit too drama queen-ish~!
i thought you were the loving, funny, sweet, nice, thoughtful.....kind of guy...but end up ure just a baby....
u cant accept rejection...thats not my fault..why are you blaming me? i just followed your orders...
for your information...im not feeling any guilt...cause i din do anything wrong...
girls like me doesnt care bout a guys' appearance its the heart that counts..
my current bf mayb isnt the perfect one infront of other girls...but he is to me..he's the only 1 who can let me act like a fool infront of him and doesnt mind i make wrong mistakes...not only that he loves me..ALOT~!!! more than u fools ever will..i'd made up my mind...i wan no one else but him.
he' s the one for me...
the rest of y'all can pack your bags and get lost..i dont wana care a damn bout y'all..
i dun wana b rude but you leave me no choice to say this...
i wan to do things my OWN way...n listen to my heart for now on~!
i wont let u decide for me....
for i am my own master...your nt the boss of me~!
goodbye~!!!

Argue

2008-05-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

we been arguing for the past few weeks...the truth is...i cant sleep through the night not thinkiong about what i said and what you said..have we lost our touch? or are u and i just worried about something...? i get confuse by listening to myself nowadays..i lost all my sense of directions..

its so hard sometimes to listen to you...cause you sometimes just hurt me badly....til i couldn't breath...just wish that you could understand for once...walk in my shoes for a day...its not easy being me and its not easy being a girl..i know its not easy being a guy as wel...i know what you're going through...i know how it feels...i know all of it...how u ask? u already know the answer to this question...

just want you to know that no matter what you say or what you do...i wont give up on you...not that easily...after all that we had been through...i really..dont want it to end...and i know that you wont let me go either...i just hope that we could stop arguing just for a second...and just listen to our heartbeats...my heartbeat is the same as yours...cause we both love each other...we both want the same thing...thats why we are arguing....i dont know why..i dont knowhow...all i know that is everytime we argue my heart felt like it was tearing up inside...slowly its bleeding...bleeding with blood our sadness...the blood of the devil...

i love you dear...im sorry for everything that im not...please just stop everything now...all i want is you know...peace and quiet...with me...only me....with the begs of mc donalds fries...doing what we love...playing together..watching home movies...i want toi grow fat with you...i want to growold with you...i love you dear..and i dont want everything we had just end like this....i love u...relly relly much...so please babe dont screw this chance up...k?

stressed out - trust

2008-03-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

this few months been crazy...i duno whats goin on and alot of things been happening so fast.. i cant catch up to any of it...new feelings and emotioins bloom within me...i feel the pain and sorrow..so deep,...that i cant even hide it anymore...old pains coming back at the time i really dont want it to..i feel so helpless..
ppl said i changed...but i myself didnt realize it..is it true? that i've change into someone im not? if not...then why are you all blaming me? cant u see im going through a lot? im just a normal teenager who obviously needs some comfort and maybe a lil attention..dont just leave me behin and not tellling me why...please dont do that,...i might not show a lot of love to the one im suppose to..but deep inside...i really really love u more than i ever did...i appreaciate u all more than i ever did...just stop judging me from the outside..please..although sometimes i act like its nothing..but deep down it matters to me alot..
for once i want someone to appreciate me for who i am...i sometimes act im strong and brave..but like i said..its just acting..im just a girl...i just dont want to let you worry bout me..if you want me to be independent then u have to believe what im doing..if u dont let me go now..i might never grow up...im a teenager going through teenage problems like evryone will...why cant you understand my needs? please give me a lil fate...one day i'll show u wat im capable of ...now its like a test to me...if now i dont succeed...just let me try until i reach my point...
i believe i can do it...now...i just need your trust...without all of ur fate...im nothing...so please....
working with stress behing my back.

bang bang tang [lollipop]

2008-02-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

like every other girl, i too have an idol singer..it all started from last year may where i layed first sight on them on AEC. Here, let me introduce u to them...[lollipop]

they can act and sing very well...before they became actors/ singers, they went through alot of challenges, like reading long scrips, dancing, singing and even some comedy. Even though the road to success isnt easy, but they never had doubt and they never give up. this is what impressed me the most. Now im goin to tell you their personality 1 by 1.

Name:Liao Yi Ying(Wei Lian)

D.O.B:1985/10/07(Libra)

Age:22

Height:176cm

Weight:67kg

Interest:BasketBall,Swimming

Name:Yang Qi Yu(Xiao Yu)

D.O.B:1985/07/05(Cancer)

Age:22

Height:172cm

Weight:60kg

Interest:Playing guitar,sports

Name:Qiu Sheng Yi(Prince/Wang Zi)

Chinese name: 邱勝翊

D.O.B:1989/04/14(Aries)

Blood type: O

Age:18

Height:173cm

Weight:53kg

Interest:Basketball

Name:Liu Jun Wei(Ah Wei)

D.O.B:1985/10/15(Libra)

Age:22

Height:168cm

Weight:60kg

Interest:Dancing,watch movie

Name:Zhuang Hao Quan(Ao Quan/Owodog)

Chinese name: 莊濠全

D.O.B:1982/10/30(Scorpio)

Blood type: O

Age:24

Height:177cm

Weight:62kg

Interest:Drawing, Dancing

Name: Xiao Jie(Lil Jay/Brian)

Chinese name: 廖俊杰

D.O.B: 1986/9/25 (Libra)

Blood Type: A

Age: 22

Height: 174cm

Weight: 60.6kg

Interests: Dancing, Watch bang bang tang, play badminton

The had also released their first album in 2008. below is a bit bout their album.

Album: Na Li Pa

Artiste: Lollipop Bang Bang Tang

Company: EMI

Release Date: 28 December, 2007

Language: Mandarin

Album Information:Lollipop started off 2007 with their debut EP Colorful Lollipop, and now they're entering 2008 with their first full-length album! The past year has been a resounding success for the BBT boys as they extended their popularity from daily variety program Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang into the realm of music. The boys also tried out acting with the idol drama Brown Sugar Macchiato and took Hong Kong by storm. Though the six boys are now bonafide pop idols, their down-to earth personalities and goofy antics haven't changed one bit, a big reason why they've found such a dedicated fanbase in Taiwan and Hong Kong.Lollipop's latest project is the weekend variety program Na Li Pa, which is also the title of their new album. The album comes with ten new songs from owodog, A-wei, Xiao Yu, Xiao Jie, William, and Prince, ranging from mid-tempo ballads to dance numbers like first plug Yes. The boys participated in the songwriting process this time around, with Xiao Yu composing and Xiao Jie contributing lyics for "Among Us", a song about the group's experiences in the past year. Lollipop's new album comes as an exciting precursor to their first concert, which will be held at the Taipei Arena on January 26, 2008.

I hope u all will enjoy the details i gave here and please listen to their music or watch them in youtube. just type 'bang bang tang' ^^. ENJOY....

wasted all this while

2008-02-07T01:35:00.001-08:00

I never tot this day would come....i wasted all my time and now all i have left are old pictures and some old memories...i miss my friends...my primary friends my childhood friends.....every single one of them...

it really had been sp long since we met or spoke or pm each other.....everything in secondary life is so hard now...sometime i just want to go back to the great old times..all those fun we had...but all of it lasted just for a moment...

seeing some of you goin to the same school and still having the time of your lifes really makes me regret at times...regret why i never follow the same path as you all.... regret why i never joined any of the reunion...haizz...

i feel so left out...im speechless... i duno wat else i can do...haizz..not that i dont like my secondary friends...i love them and all...but then i miss u guys to..

all i can say now...is that i miss u guys...sigh...

valentine

2008-02-06T04:51:00.000-08:00

valentine day is around the corner as we speak...and a lot of ppl had bought presents for their valentine...and evry year...i end up presentless and dateless....not even a wish from my own valentine...><><><>

Ooo-always-by-your-side-ooO

2008-01-26T05:52:00.001-08:00

That is the very eye i fell in love with 3 years ago..never thought out relationship can start out just from being friends. Just think those 3 years of feeling u had for me as well as i had for u wasted because of our coward hearts. Imagine we could had the chance to be together all that while but we just couldn't do it. but at least now we're together right? iloveu dear...n i forever will~
All i want is u to promise me that no matter what happens u will still hold me tight in your arms. Today, i finally understand why u dont like to talk...Its all just because you're a great listener.~!your a really great listener~thank ou for ALWAYS being their for me~3 years in a row~your the best!

I just want you to know that if sometimes when im moody or dont feel like talking doesn't mean i stop caring bout u..Its just sometimes,i just feel like that and maybe im just very tired. Theres always a place for you in my heart.No matter how tired how stress how moody i am you are always in my mind and i care bout you every second of my life~REMEMBER that~!!!no matter how deep is the ocean no matter how far the distance no matter so high the mountain..i'll always be by your side~like u always are when i needed you most! MUACKXX
I will always love you no matter what happens~nothing gonna stop me from loving you~and noone is gonna change my mind! i swear~im truly madly sincerely in love with u~i love u the way u r....n i hope u feel that way too~i love u swc i love u

Oooo-thank-you-oooO

2008-01-26T05:29:00.000-08:00

All i want is u to promise me that no matter what happens u will still hold me tight in your arms. Today, i finally understand why u dont like to talk...Its all just because you're a great listener.~!your a really great listener~thank ou for ALWAYS being their for me~3 years in a row~your the best!

NEW

2008-01-10T04:24:00.000-08:00

A new chapter had started. everything is new to me once again.Everything seems to go so fast and come in a sudden.All i can do is to get use to it. If u never try u'll never know right? As for the love of my teen life...

He's this special guy who caught my heart since the day i set eyes on him. He's no hawt stuff but he has a heart of a bear but he's my bear. ^^ My life started to change since he stepped foot into it.I never could find a word to describe how i feel about u. Eventhough nowadays 'something' keeps bothering u...but i still want u to know that i love u very very much~Nothing is going to change between u and me. ok?

by the way, i have new hobbies now. Very new to new in fact, first is volleyball which i played for the first time in my life after that 'incident'. Yet i still cant deal with my fears yet. i dont know wat can i do. and that means i ,et new friends too. Well not exactly that new la...just that now we gotten closer..well, i jst stop here. ciaozz

My Voice Within

Dear Teacher

the sweetest day 3*4*2010

last post for cny

dream house

to boss

to boss

ignorant

hang out on the 3rd day of cny

family :: stay strong ::

special thanks just for you

2nd day of new yr

happy valentine n happy cny 10'

babi's

2010

KC babies REUNION!!! 2009

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never regret; but do LEarn

special thx~

OVER THE MOON!!!

holiday

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pain?

day by day..

Siao Siao!!!!! 180709

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY

challenge

~WITHOUT~

*~obsession~*

obsession

bravo to the unexpected

360

friday of 1309

Big Bang

w850

what a new year

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su jung

sin fan

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23-10-2008 10.30pm

wheee

happy birthday dear~!

few more days

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4 sc 2 a.k.a 4 sc ZOO~

set things straight

set things straight

14/7/08 resigned

!!!SMKDP SUX!!!

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Argue

stressed out - trust

bang bang tang [lollipop]

wasted all this while

valentine

Ooo-always-by-your-side-ooO

Oooo-thank-you-oooO

NEW

the sweetest day 342010

~obsession~

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