2014

it really has been a while since i last written here. here lies all the words from deep within that i cannot express. this is the 7th year i've been in my company..yeah...it has its ups and downs but well...its fun. you really cant deny that it has been a hell of an experience. let's sum it up. i lost the so called 'love of my life' just because i spent more time here than with him. i found another guy who casually denies my existense for like....forever.. it's a bitter sweet memory i guess you can say. well...it's been 2 years now since i left taman desa... honestly, i kinda miss all the chaos going around there.. thinking that it would never to be my concern. but now...everything's changed... the table has turned around...karma just came right back and bit me in the ass... hard! i guess what i'm trying to express is that i never thought caring for 'me's is that hard... a really hats off to my mentors..for tolerating me and accepting me... my life now is a lil....pain in the ass... teachers problem... branch problems.... even drivers problem....>< but....on top all of that craziness...i still have the best and sweetest guy now... my lovely kelvin.. you're emotional...always... but thats what make you....you...:] you're normal that way. i must admit i kinda miss you nowadays...though you're just right beside me... i guess i just miss my carefree days with you. but i'll keep my promise... i'll be there for you no matter bad or good, i'll support whatever decision you make... for....i'm hopelessly in love with a maniac like you... just wished you could have read this.... oh well...

Dear Teacher

To the dearest teachers of my heart,
....in specifric [Mr. Lim & Ms. Hui]
...i know sending a sms is not sincere....calling is not sincere
even typing this is merely as sincere as caling..
but truth to be told...
i'm just...
AFRAID to say this out loud...
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS...
but teacher, you just give me the creeps more than respect
i don't whic step i make might make me lose my job...
both of you are so good in talking...that you can talk me out into jobless society..
you always told us to be gratefull...and i thank you for that...
because of you, i built up new relationshp with my parents...
you always told us to be filial....i want to be too...
we heard stories of others saying they lost their loved ones gone away before they could spend time with themm...
i dont want to regret on the things that i didnt do...
you could see your parents and be with them everyday...
i dont want to miss out on any on that...
you guys are happy and lucky enough to have that...
i dont want to be told that i was the one who doesnt go home even i live 15 mins apart from home.
thats stupid...
i dont want to sound mean...but im just depressed and frustrated over the way you treat me,,,
it sucks...
i just want to be normal like the normals witha job.
[to be continue]

the sweetest day 3*4*2010

hmmm...
went to the pj library with mum this morning to listen to dr. ramesh's talk
was an very interesting talk bout meditation..
its true that your body build up 'happy viruses' that can heal you when you bpdy is at ease..
in this busy and buzzing generations...ppl cant seem to find time for family nor themselves...
and doctors became out closest friends yet...
as a doctor (dr. ramesh) our job is to heal ppl...
but sometimes i wished my clinic/hospital could be empty for once...
the rates of patients rising each DAY is frightening...
nowadays...the best and yet the cheapest cure for all illness is...........meditation..
looking for your inner peace and putting ur body, mind and soul to ease once a while..
escape the hardcore lifestyle for 15-20 minutes..
and you'll see/feel the difference...
i myself have found my inner peace///
my hair stylist said i lost an amount of hair...
she said i was stressed...
can see the look on mum's face that she was worry..
sigh...
mum....dont u worry...im ok...=/ i really am...
a lil stress wont hurt me...=)
neways....
met up with someone special today..
my special sweet-hearted and thoughtful boss...lun~~
thx for lunch and the advance bday present...
it's truly a special present...no doubt about it...=))
hmmm....
mind me saying...
i have the most cocky smile ever...(don't get me wrong)
its...cute (in a good manly way) =p
i like your honesty...
you're easy to talk to...=))<3
hmmm....wat else...
oh yea...do ask your parents bout it(college)
not to frighten u or anything...i just don't want you or any other friends of mine to get ''cheated''
well....remember its your decision as the future lies in your hands...
you may write your own destiny...but remember...we all are writing in pen..
the mistakes you're about to write down...can't be erased..........
so...choose wisely...=)
I'll support you in whatever decision you'll make...=) (im a very loyal director, no? LOL)
well...thx agn for the sweet gift...
i love it...=) very unique
have a great day ahead yea~~
take care...
hugzz

last post for cny

well....
time really flies when you're having fun.
it feels like just yesterday i said goodbye to my cousin nephew..
(which was on last sat 12feb)
and today's the 20th of feb
and tomolo night i'll be going back to my dorm.
had an one on one tutorial with mum today..
thx mum!!!
at least i know something frm the text..
and also thx to uncle eng for the help in finding a reference book =))
not forgetting 'boss'~~~~
thankx for everything =))
very grateful to have people like them in my life
this will be my last post of the week...
i dont think i'll be posting one tomolo..hmmm.
maybe.....i could....
well let's see then...hehe
neways....
dont know why...but i feel extremely tired today..
slpt in the car, relative's house...the car again..and slpt on the house couch.
but im awake now.XD
and for no blardy reasons....my left ear hurts...like....hmmm..(insert suitable word)
wow..
i just realized that im gonna miss everyone here...especially my family..
and the truth is...
i think im gonna miss u too, boss...
and of coz my crazy friends.....TAKE K AHH LIM SHEN YIN!!!!!!
bodoh punye kura2 =P (help me take k of my baba ah...)
hmmm....
wat else to blog....
think bout it later hehe....
til next time...
love ya...
miss ya...
ciaoz~~~

dream house

during this cny...
i've been to whole lot of houses..
all diff kinds...
there's big ones, really big ones. and really really big ones xD
well...it might be grand and nice and big..
and it might seem like a home...
but to me...they're nothing more but a house..
maybe to them, it feels like a home..
who am i to judge right?
but this cny, ppl keep asking me bout my future.
and i really put a lot of thinking into it..
one of my relative...are really kind
its nice of them to ...hmmm...intro me to an estate with nice houses..
yes..i do want a partner..
and yes...i do wish to have a family of my own..
IN FUTURE...
and in all the houses i've been to..
my mind still remains the same..
i want my dream house..
which is...
my own home...
the one im livin' in now...=)
my parents bought this house right after i was born..
and its contracted for 70 yrs..
and the truth...
it might need a lil touching up...
but i won't mind raising a family here..=)
its convinient....safe....and...more importantly...
it feels like a home.=)
so there, my dream house is my home...=)
nothing can change my mind...
im lovin it...muackkxx!!! <3<3

to boss

just wanna dedicate this whole page to boss....=))

THANK YOU!!

to boss

just want to dedicate this whole page to you, boss....

THANK YOU