2014

it really has been a while since i last written here. here lies all the words from deep within that i cannot express. this is the 7th year i've been in my company..yeah...it has its ups and downs but well...its fun. you really cant deny that it has been a hell of an experience. let's sum it up. i lost the so called 'love of my life' just because i spent more time here than with him. i found another guy who casually denies my existense for like....forever.. it's a bitter sweet memory i guess you can say. well...it's been 2 years now since i left taman desa... honestly, i kinda miss all the chaos going around there.. thinking that it would never to be my concern. but now...everything's changed... the table has turned around...karma just came right back and bit me in the ass... hard! i guess what i'm trying to express is that i never thought caring for 'me's is that hard... a really hats off to my mentors..for tolerating me and accepting me... my life now is a lil....pain in the ass... teachers problem... branch problems.... even drivers problem....>< but....on top all of that craziness...i still have the best and sweetest guy now... my lovely kelvin.. you're emotional...always... but thats what make you....you...:] you're normal that way. i must admit i kinda miss you nowadays...though you're just right beside me... i guess i just miss my carefree days with you. but i'll keep my promise... i'll be there for you no matter bad or good, i'll support whatever decision you make... for....i'm hopelessly in love with a maniac like you... just wished you could have read this.... oh well...

Dear Teacher

To the dearest teachers of my heart,
....in specifric [Mr. Lim & Ms. Hui]
...i know sending a sms is not sincere....calling is not sincere
even typing this is merely as sincere as caling..
but truth to be told...
i'm just...
AFRAID to say this out loud...
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS...
but teacher, you just give me the creeps more than respect
i don't whic step i make might make me lose my job...
both of you are so good in talking...that you can talk me out into jobless society..
you always told us to be gratefull...and i thank you for that...
because of you, i built up new relationshp with my parents...
you always told us to be filial....i want to be too...
we heard stories of others saying they lost their loved ones gone away before they could spend time with themm...
i dont want to regret on the things that i didnt do...
you could see your parents and be with them everyday...
i dont want to miss out on any on that...
you guys are happy and lucky enough to have that...
i dont want to be told that i was the one who doesnt go home even i live 15 mins apart from home.
thats stupid...
i dont want to sound mean...but im just depressed and frustrated over the way you treat me,,,
it sucks...
i just want to be normal like the normals witha job.
[to be continue]

the sweetest day 3*4*2010

hmmm...
went to the pj library with mum this morning to listen to dr. ramesh's talk
was an very interesting talk bout meditation..
its true that your body build up 'happy viruses' that can heal you when you bpdy is at ease..
in this busy and buzzing generations...ppl cant seem to find time for family nor themselves...
and doctors became out closest friends yet...
as a doctor (dr. ramesh) our job is to heal ppl...
but sometimes i wished my clinic/hospital could be empty for once...
the rates of patients rising each DAY is frightening...
nowadays...the best and yet the cheapest cure for all illness is...........meditation..
looking for your inner peace and putting ur body, mind and soul to ease once a while..
escape the hardcore lifestyle for 15-20 minutes..
and you'll see/feel the difference...
i myself have found my inner peace///
my hair stylist said i lost an amount of hair...
she said i was stressed...
can see the look on mum's face that she was worry..
sigh...
mum....dont u worry...im ok...=/ i really am...
a lil stress wont hurt me...=)
neways....
met up with someone special today..
my special sweet-hearted and thoughtful boss...lun~~
thx for lunch and the advance bday present...
it's truly a special present...no doubt about it...=))
hmmm....
mind me saying...
i have the most cocky smile ever...(don't get me wrong)
its...cute (in a good manly way) =p
i like your honesty...
you're easy to talk to...=))<3
hmmm....wat else...
oh yea...do ask your parents bout it(college)
not to frighten u or anything...i just don't want you or any other friends of mine to get ''cheated''
well....remember its your decision as the future lies in your hands...
you may write your own destiny...but remember...we all are writing in pen..
the mistakes you're about to write down...can't be erased..........
so...choose wisely...=)
I'll support you in whatever decision you'll make...=) (im a very loyal director, no? LOL)
well...thx agn for the sweet gift...
i love it...=) very unique
have a great day ahead yea~~
take care...
hugzz

last post for cny

well....
time really flies when you're having fun.
it feels like just yesterday i said goodbye to my cousin nephew..
(which was on last sat 12feb)
and today's the 20th of feb
and tomolo night i'll be going back to my dorm.
had an one on one tutorial with mum today..
thx mum!!!
at least i know something frm the text..
and also thx to uncle eng for the help in finding a reference book =))
not forgetting 'boss'~~~~
thankx for everything =))
very grateful to have people like them in my life
this will be my last post of the week...
i dont think i'll be posting one tomolo..hmmm.
maybe.....i could....
well let's see then...hehe
neways....
dont know why...but i feel extremely tired today..
slpt in the car, relative's house...the car again..and slpt on the house couch.
but im awake now.XD
and for no blardy reasons....my left ear hurts...like....hmmm..(insert suitable word)
wow..
i just realized that im gonna miss everyone here...especially my family..
and the truth is...
i think im gonna miss u too, boss...
and of coz my crazy friends.....TAKE K AHH LIM SHEN YIN!!!!!!
bodoh punye kura2 =P (help me take k of my baba ah...)
hmmm....
wat else to blog....
think bout it later hehe....
til next time...
love ya...
miss ya...
ciaoz~~~

dream house

during this cny...
i've been to whole lot of houses..
all diff kinds...
there's big ones, really big ones. and really really big ones xD
well...it might be grand and nice and big..
and it might seem like a home...
but to me...they're nothing more but a house..
maybe to them, it feels like a home..
who am i to judge right?
but this cny, ppl keep asking me bout my future.
and i really put a lot of thinking into it..
one of my relative...are really kind
its nice of them to ...hmmm...intro me to an estate with nice houses..
yes..i do want a partner..
and yes...i do wish to have a family of my own..
IN FUTURE...
and in all the houses i've been to..
my mind still remains the same..
i want my dream house..
which is...
my own home...
the one im livin' in now...=)
my parents bought this house right after i was born..
and its contracted for 70 yrs..
and the truth...
it might need a lil touching up...
but i won't mind raising a family here..=)
its convinient....safe....and...more importantly...
it feels like a home.=)
so there, my dream house is my home...=)
nothing can change my mind...
im lovin it...muackkxx!!! <3<3

to boss

just wanna dedicate this whole page to boss....=))

THANK YOU!!

to boss

just want to dedicate this whole page to you, boss....

THANK YOU

ignorant

woke up at 9 at the only thing i heard was my LOUD neighbour.
i was upstairs but i can hear EVERY SINGLE word she said.
XD
she was inviting my mum to her 35th anniversary.
then she started to complain bout her husband....blablabla..
i was happily showerin at that moment....didn't bother a word she said
then i think she was talking on the phone...
saying wat restaurant...wat date...blablabla..
at the end of my refreshing morning shower..she went back...
then mum came up and........SIGH.......
we both looked at each other and laugh..
then she told me wat happened and that she rejected her invitation.
we had a great laugh of that..XD
then at 11, our crazy journey begins...
first stop >>> yi gu's house (pj new town) 1hr
2nd >>>>>>>>>> aunt's (melaka)house (kepong ulu)had a great melaka feast there...yum!!
got the traditional recipe!! YES!
1.ham choi ngap (salty vege + duck soup )=d
2.pickled spicy mango
3.gue'don (hou si + chick/pork + ...)
4.yok coi gai (chicken herbs soup)
lol so much to learn so little time..
braise yourself if i call u to makan at my house one day !! ngek ngek.
my mum was making a joke bout girls couldn't get married if they don't know how to cook..
-.- zzzz
such an obvious hint....
we were there for about 3 to 4 hours...
old ppl nag so much....why ah??
sigh....may god bless them...
my cousin (who is elder than me) asked my mum how to let go.
i looked at him and was like :'here, take this (hands over an empty packet)
now, let go.'' (he lets go and looks blankly at me)
'you still dun get it?'
he replied :'i know...but hw to let go?'
*faints*
ashta fila alwazimmmmm.......
forget bout it....=.=
next stop~~~~~
mum's eldest sister's house.....which was like 2 blocks away (kepong)
we gave 1 bag of biscuits as buah tangan
she gives us tree...sooooo nice xDDD
the FINALLY the last stop!!!
to sungei buloh
aunty KT's house...
had a great chat there..
were stuck for bout 3 hrs there due to pouring rain..
but it was finally cool for once after 3 days of hot and burning weather
we end up having our dinner at KFC.
it was really a finger licking good one.xD
not because of the chicken but was i gotta have dinner with my parents.=))
it would be such a great portrait xD
reached home at bout 9+pm
learnt bout my family history, my kampung's and recipes XD
still here's the quote of the day:
'No man is born stupid, just ignorant'
God is everywhere...
She/He will always be with us no matter what..
only humans make things become complicated..
ENJOY LIFE!!!

hang out on the 3rd day of cny

hung out with resha and kelvin today.
was a lot of fun until i sprained my own knee///==
i dont even know how i did it..
it hurts until now..
stupid me...=.=zzzzz
first activity- karaoke WOOHOOZZ
sang our lungs out...
they call it screaming but i called it Destress-ing
XD
had a great time...
never trust the manager with your mic..
their 5 mins = to half an hour..
-.- bad bad management..== kd..
can improve la...=p
overall the songs need to be updated...
the food......2 thumbs up...
the service..maybe its a busy day la..
so i forgive them
xP
after all the DESTRESS-ing..
kita org pergi yam cha...
at purple cane which also sounds like burger king..XDDD
had to pull myself there...sadnye...
the service there was great, maybe cause my friend's friends are working there.xD
but seriously...it was better than....redbox..
cham cham....
had a salad and tea...
overall bill...RM11 lol..
but then thanks to Zhi Bin..
we only had to pay RM8..
-.- feel awkward but...THANKX ZHI BIN!! owe u one!
now i gotta get ready for tomorrow.
cause according to mum.....
its gonna be a crazy day....but more ang paus xP
looking forward to tomorrow and hopefully my knee gets better..
==

family :: stay strong ::

what is family?
according to lilo and stitch...
ohana means family and family means no one get left behind or forgotten..
i know i might sound childish...
but to think of it..
the relatives i once knew....are all different now..
maybe because when we were young, we didnt know what are money, standards or property..
well...i guess this is reality..
when time passes...humans change (well some of them)
but i can't believe my ears and eyes..
when....the one that i once look up to ..looked down on me...for years..
just because i came from a not so wealthy family..
its all so funny...
someone that i haven't met for over 6 yrs..
underestimates me infront of my mum and others...
without knowing what i'm capable of...
the funny part? i kept silent....
listening to your every sickin' word..
i really felt like rebelling..
but what's the use? that wouldn't change my status in ur mind..
well..
this is wat i gotta say...
better listen carefully or in this case read...
i.....mcms...
thank you...for what u have said..
your words might be hurtful and it might bring another person down.
but it just makes me stronger...
maybe your right? who knows..
i still have a lot in me that i haven't discover..
you're right....
i gotta improve..
everyone's going overseas..and im staying put in s'pore..
that's not enough...
thank you..
i'll work harder..
thanks alot..

special thanks just for you

just opened my msn...
saw a touching and sweet msg from someone..
really happy to see your reply..
=)
happy valentine's to you too~~
hope to really say it to u X)
its ok that you didn't reply my msg EARLY..
at least u did read em' and u did replied at the end..
even though we are at our separate ways...
and we don't see each other that often..
u always manage to cheer me up at the right time..
=X
coincidence? creepy? XD
thx boss~~~
miss ya...
take care =))

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<3 from your always loyal employee <3

2nd day of new yr

2nd day of new year...wow...
how time flies...
went to kai ma's house yesterday..
alot had changed...
miss her soo soooo much..my dai kor...went to klang..
lil bro slping..
only yi kor was there...
still rmb he broke his leg in dec...
then when i went yesterday...he got up and open the gate for me..
i was so shocked that i gone speechless..
lol...
then the fellow still dare to drink cold water and eat sea food..and all those crap..
haiz...make ppl wry oni...
oh yea...yesterday evening my sister came..
saw wai kit after several years..
wat a big boy he is...
age 13 height 158 ...
almost taller than me....gasp...
dai ko zai already....TvT
i sound like an old lady XD
ku jie oso came yesterday..
had a long chat bout my college and my boss..
-.-
dun get wats so interesting..
just want things to be normal...like it used to...
makan ... chat... tv.... chat...main...chat...ciao..XDDD
ok la....not bad la...
at least gt sth to talk bout...
wonder wat will happen today...hmmmm
looking forward to it...=D
aza aza fighting!!!

happy valentine n happy cny 10'

one more day to cny/ valentine day..
well...screw valentine...i need money!! XD
just kiddin
gong xi fa CAI to EVERYONE
n happy valentine to ....
mummy...
daddy...
my super family...
you...
n you who are reading...=D
kenny , my cousin nephew just went to australia last night
sad..
no more night movies n night lepak's..
I'LL MISS YOU!!!
lol..
alot said i changed....
more pretty i guess.XD
miss evryone here..
hope to see n hang out with everyonr soon
tidak sabar><
lol
just cleaned my house, do chores...
wow....
quite tiring..
but worth it...
my home glows now.lol..
happy to see my family up n well =D
more to come this few days.
stay reading lol

babi's

yesterday grandpa was submitted to the hospital and was in a coma..
he was placed in the emergency ward...
his breathing tube keeps coming off..
my mum, my aunt and i were not familiar with those instruments
so we might as well called for assistants..
the nurses were BABI's...
haizz....
i called you because it was something i couldnt deal with and it WAS an EMERGENCY..
they were like '' okok...nanti nanti..." then continues chatting
i was very uncomfortable with the way they answered..
then after 5 mins they didnt come..
i again went there to talk to the nurses bout the problem
they gave me the same answer....
im getting very pissed off..
after 5 mins...they did not show up...
thanks to a KIND family of malay at the opposite bed,
i found the emergency button,...
i pressed it and they came..
i look at time like one kind..
they dare not look at me..
2 of them were pregnant women..
to me...if you get pregnant, dont come to work
stay home and stay out of everyone's way..=.=
stupid lazy nurses...
one of them walked in after a few mins tryin to act all professional..
i asked ' die ok ke? sawan die kan infect otak die ke?'
she was like ' tak la u tak tau jgn kata la, die ni strok la dik'
my god if that was strok then we wont be moving both his hands and legs right?!?!
idiots..
cert u beli ke?????!?!? WTH?!?!
today morning, mom went to visit grandpa at 6 in the morning
as usual i was still in dream land
when she came back at 3,
she told me the nurses who treated me n other patients with no respect yesterday
kena kantoi by the chief doctor..
lmao...
serve them right...
the doctor said and was shouting at the nurses saying that my grandpa really got sawan(epilepsy) not strok..
bone heads..-.- otak rendang!
go back to school you good for nothing babi's GRRR
then the rest was history...
the nurses were set to other departments and my mum said the new nurses were much nicer..=)
lucky
grandpa, get well soon...
forgive and forget
amitabha~

2010

happy new year everyone...
new year new goals new dreams~
i definately got mine =)
new year was full of surprises indeed =D
i think i might do well too xD
the best thing bout new year was
baba called me and was shouting in my ear xD
and the msgs from everyone..
thankx y'all
well, as for the rest...
i wish y'all a prosperative new year =D
and for US...
lets see what had God and the future installed for us =)
all the best to everyone and myself XD
muacks

KC babies REUNION!!! 2009

30th Dec 2009
the kc babies reunite!@!!
woohoozz
first gathering after 5 years wei...
everyone changed leh...
so hot,and tall...and attractive =p
xD
today's reunion included sui lun, yewho, steph, steph's hottie, jess, janine, cwen,yok man, joyce, renlord
love this ppl byk2
so much has changed....
do wish the second reunion could include more ppl..
although everyone has their diff path now...
but hopefully our bound never change X)))
i miss u guys so much now...=D
see everyone soon!

on the 3rd day of xmas. =)

went to perm my hair today =D
it looks kinda puffy (not the way i expected)
but according to the hair stylist, it will straighten and should look like the way i imagined it in about a week or so...
so....yea...i'm temporary lil miss puffy XD
after 4hrs of butt cramping, back aching....
mum and i were off to leisure mall...
to watch Bodyguards and Assasins (BG&As) =D
the movie was packed but we managed to get sits (front role sits)
it was A NECK-ACHING EXPERIENCE!!!!
i myself would have enjoyed the movie FULLY...
IF!!!!!!! the babi's behind me would stop talking and KICKING my chair?!?!
i was soooo pissed off after the movie...
its like a row of malays sitting behind me..
im not being racist or anything but...............
'kalau nak panggil kite org babi, jgn lah pandai sgt pgi tonton wayang org babi dengar skrip org babi yang dsediakan oleh org babi yang jugak dtonton oleh SEMUA org babi!?@!?!@!$#%^&* bodoh bapa tak ajar kau org manners dlm panggung wayang..CICAK KAU!'
phew....sorry la...they were like...getting on my nerves..
they act like its their father's house only...
answering their phone in the cinema in the middle of the movie..
then making !@#$%^&*() noise during the show...
kicking chairs !@#$%^&*()
LAUGHING!!!! when ppl DIE!!!!
WTH!?!?!
tunggu i sembelih leher kau baru tu i tengok u ketawa ke tak!
bodoh sial..
ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.....
Leisure Mall : screw the movie and lets go shopping..
its like a shopping paradise for shop-a-holic like my mum n i XD
but too bad we had no time...
after the movie we went back n took dad out for dinner..
righttttttttttt.....behind my house XD
(gou gei)in cantonese
we ordered fish...toufu...some vege and chicken~
yum yum yum~!
delicious~!
i still can feel the fish swimming in my intestine...
*that sounds wrong..*but u know wat i mean la..
XD
overall except the movie part..
my day was great =D
hope everyone had a happy day today =))

never regret; but do LEarn

one day, a friend of mine sent me a question, saying
If you had a chance to go back to your past and u could change one thing about it, what would it be?
without hesitating i answered: NOTHING
a simple reason for the answer i gave...
if i hadn't been hurt in an relationship, i will never learn to love and give
if i hadn't fallen down, how will i learn to get up again?
if i hadn't failed, how will i be strong enough to fight for success?
everything in the past was a lesson...
everyone in this world has to go through it..=)
it might be hard,
it might be painful,
it might even cause u deep injuries..
but the deeper the wound...
the brighter your future..
never regret what had already happened..
but learn from it.
=))
live life to the fullest and you will never have a boring day in your life..
be happy...give n love to the max so you'll never fall back too far...=)

special thx~

SPECIAL THX TO KENNY FOR FIXING MY OLD CACAT BLOG TO THIS BEAUTIFUL DESIGN =)))
THANK YOU!!!!!!!
and thank you to the people who made my day today =)
who are mr lim, ms hui, ms lim, ms jiexi, ms kong, ms yip and mr woo..AND!
MUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love you all sooo sooo much!
today's a special day not coz its xmas but coz i got to spent it with you guys =))

OVER THE MOON!!!

wow, its xmas eve, ppl!!!!!
woohoozzzz!!!! one more hour it will be xmas!!!!
watching a movie with mum tomolo...
today jam like.....XXXXXXX (insert word)
ohhhh.......SUPPER!!!! be back soon to continue~~~~
ngek ngek