what a new year

what a new year this is...
i cant go out...i cant hangf out with friends...the worse of all i can get out~!
what tears my heart is that you cant even be there for me...
since sunday i been no where but home,,,
ppl say home sweet home..
it is...dun get me wrong..i love myt home..
but i dun wana be 24/7 cooped up in here..
im a human more importantly I AM A TEENAGER~!!!!!!!!!
i need fresh air///
i need someone tht i can socialize with...
watch tv? NO...play computer? NO...sleep? NO~!
I WANA GET OUT OF HERE,,,
i cant seem to do anything right....
since 24/1 i get scolded til today..
WTF~!!! wtf u wan me to say and do?~??~!@$#@#$!@#
if u wan me to do something i'll be happy to..
BUT NOT BY YELLING OR COMMANDING!!
when im feeling blue i turn to u..but this week..u werent there at all..
i feel lost..really lost..
is like no one could help me...i couldnt say anything to anyone...
i get bored and lonely...and all u can say is...
'THATS LIFE GET ON WITH IT..''
i was shocked...really shocked....
thats not life...thats torture...
as for you..............you've changed........
its wierd to see u like this....
i once was found...but...now im lost...again........
i need my life back...

intro to BIG BANG

real name : kwon ji yong

stage name : G-Dragon

bday : 18-8-1988

blood type : A

height: 170cm

weight: 54kg

FAMILY:Father,Mother,& Older Sister

HOBBYS:Working Out,Sleeping,Listening To Music
TALENT:Rap, Dancing,Writing Music
WHAT HE LIKES:Clothes, Hats,Shoes,Accessories
WHAT HE DOESN'T LIKE: Rainy Days
RELIGION:Christian
DEBUT: 2001 KOREA, Hip Hop Flex Album
FAVORITE MUSICIANS:50CENT, Justin Timberlake, Nelly,Bow Wow, YG Family
FAVORITE LYRIC:"Oh Shit!!"
FAVORITE COLORS: Black, Sky Blue,Yellow
TYPE OR GIRL HE LIKES: Kind, Stylish, Cute, and one that Connects with him.

{The Start...}

As the youngest kid rapper ever to feature in the album ‘2001 Korea Hip Hop Flex’ at the age of twelve, G-Dragon created a buzz with his impressive gifted talents. After joining the YG Family and becoming the youngest family member, G-Dragon has collaborated in the many albums of artists such Wheesung, Perry and YG Family 2. He is the next generation’s leading rapper.

real name : Choi Seung Hyun

stage name: T.O.P

bday :

su jung

feeling happy today...i was kinda down since last night coz of sth happened...
but when today my mom ajak me out (unusual) we talked like friends and went jalan jalan like human beings....-.-
i told her bout wats going on in my life now..like new idol...
new style...new personality...
and surprisingly she accepted it...TT so touched..
recently i was moved by the korean band 'Big Bang' they're so cute and so hawt~~
so hard to resist~~^^
we went to a mall nearby our house..
we saw a new book shop...i insisted my mum to went in to have a look...
i wanted to learn korean language...but the words are all so difficult..
luckily for me..i met a korean family whose daughter came to malaysia to study..
shes 16 which make her my tong seung(younger sister)
they moved to malaysia 2 years ago but still new to the lifestyle here..
my mum was kind enough to invite them to our home to have dinner..
they accepted..the daughter's name Su Jung was learning mandrin...lucky for her..we know mandrin...teehee...
so we taught her mandrin and Su Jung taught me korean...
HAPPY>.......
so now ...learning korean...
thx to my korean omoni and aboji and of course my tong seung...<3>
sa lang hae y'yo~~!!!!!!!!!
and kam sa ha mi da~!!!
happy~~~~~
off to korean we go...
wait for me big bang~!!!!!

nal bwa nal bwa gwisoon~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sin fan

i feel down and so disturb by my own emotion...
my head orders me to do 1 but my heart tells me to do 2
i cant get out frm this fantasy.
although its beautiful but it aint healty
im going crazy.....
i need help or just someone to talk to...
i'm slowly drowning in my own fantasy...
i cant get out...
still searching a way to safe myself...
will someone help...
i scream and scarem but....noone hears me...
i cant differentshade which is real and which is false...
weeping away in an unknown world...
an unknown world filled with love and peace...
but those are not real~~i need to get a grib of myself...
im falling....falling.......
falling into his eyes.......into his mind..........into his world..............
who can safe me? before....its too late

happy chinese niU year

Happy Chinese Niu Year to all the chinese n non chinese...
this is a date to celebrate...
forget all the bad and welcome all the good...
may God bless every one of you~
wishing everyone a prosperity and healthy year~~~~
GONG XI FATT CHAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23-10-2008 10.30pm

i really hate this day..
the cruelest day ever...
the day i witness death..
how short is life....
my baby kevin left this world with a few struggle...
b and mom told me its time to let go...
i understand that life will come to aan end one day...
but i never thought that it will be this soon..
i loved him so much...
its just too soon and too sudden..
how can i ever replace you with other PETS..
im so afraid to love again...
i don wan to bring it back just to see them go again...
GOODBYE can never be said in a right time........
you were my baby...
you were everything to me...
i can tell you anything when i have no one to turn to
but nopw...you're gone...gone to a better place
leaving me here alone..
now i really feel alone..
i miss you kevin~
i miss you~~
i'll never forget you~

wheee

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY~!!! its finally over...
exam is over~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all the late night studies...
all the stress...
all the headaches...
ALL OVER~!!!!!!!!!!!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
BUT~~~
the worst is yet to come....
the results T.T
this time im doomed~
well...i better live my last breath before i die`~~
x.x
hope everyone else gets good results ^^
all the best to you all~!!!!