stressed out - trust

this few months been crazy...i duno whats goin on and alot of things been happening so fast.. i cant catch up to any of it...new feelings and emotioins bloom within me...i feel the pain and sorrow..so deep,...that i cant even hide it anymore...old pains coming back at the time i really dont want it to..i feel so helpless..
ppl said i changed...but i myself didnt realize it..is it true? that i've change into someone im not? if not...then why are you all blaming me? cant u see im going through a lot? im just a normal teenager who obviously needs some comfort and maybe a lil attention..dont just leave me behin and not tellling me why...please dont do that,...i might not show a lot of love to the one im suppose to..but deep inside...i really really love u more than i ever did...i appreaciate u all more than i ever did...just stop judging me from the outside..please..although sometimes i act like its nothing..but deep down it matters to me alot..
for once i want someone to appreciate me for who i am...i sometimes act im strong and brave..but like i said..its just acting..im just a girl...i just dont want to let you worry bout me..if you want me to be independent then u have to believe what im doing..if u dont let me go now..i might never grow up...im a teenager going through teenage problems like evryone will...why cant you understand my needs? please give me a lil fate...one day i'll show u wat im capable of ...now its like a test to me...if now i dont succeed...just let me try until i reach my point...
i believe i can do it...now...i just need your trust...without all of ur fate...im nothing...so please....
working with stress behing my back.