!!!SMKDP SUX!!!

basically SMKDP dont suck its just most of the teachers in it. brainless fuck-tards~! not to be rude but I cant help it~! you all are just blind and just stupid..u all are great teachers with brilliant mind.(at least most of you'all) but you just use your eyes to decide...you dont use your brains at all???
all this years of hard work...non of it being paid off...you ask us to respect y'all but wat bout us? we are hyuman beings too..if you learn to respect us you'll find it more easier to communicate wit us..
like you all said you all was once a teenager like us...USE YOUR BRAIN!!! and think..! wat were you like in those days? rebelious? naughty? or maybe you are always the hard working but never gets anything in repay...or maybe you are the one putting your hopes and looking at it crashing down infront of you...
Ever had that feeling??
you all know what its like...i know you have your own responsibility....and so do we...but its not wrong to have fun and USE YOUR BRAIN ONCE IN A WHILE!@!!@!!
its wrong to judge a person if you DONT REALLY know them...you dont know the pain that we are going through because of y'all...you tried that before in your years...so why do you want to pass it down to us?
because of your actions..it will be pass down to generations. ending up we only have one person to blame...
im upset because of y'all...i've put my heart and soul to everything i did for .....but at the end...(sigh) u all disgust me~!
you all have no rights to hurt anyone like that~!!!!!!!! this scar wil remain in me forever~!!!


bullshit to the teachers who had hurt my feelings and my spirit~!!
you're in my list~!

please~><

i duno how to put it but im very upset and very dissapointed. i thought you were the 1 who ask to give him a chnce? which i did.
no offence but u're really a lil bit too drama queen-ish~!
i thought you were the loving, funny, sweet, nice, thoughtful.....kind of guy...but end up ure just a baby....
u cant accept rejection...thats not my fault..why are you blaming me? i just followed your orders...
for your information...im not feeling any guilt...cause i din do anything wrong...
girls like me doesnt care bout a guys' appearance its the heart that counts..
my current bf mayb isnt the perfect one infront of other girls...but he is to me..he's the only 1 who can let me act like a fool infront of him and doesnt mind i make wrong mistakes...not only that he loves me..ALOT~!!! more than u fools ever will..i'd made up my mind...i wan no one else but him.
he' s the one for me...
the rest of y'all can pack your bags and get lost..i dont wana care a damn bout y'all..
i dun wana b rude but you leave me no choice to say this...
i wan to do things my OWN way...n listen to my heart for now on~!
i wont let u decide for me....
for i am my own master...your nt the boss of me~!
goodbye~!!!

Argue

we been arguing for the past few weeks...the truth is...i cant sleep through the night not thinkiong about what i said and what you said..have we lost our touch? or are u and i just worried about something...? i get confuse by listening to myself nowadays..i lost all my sense of directions..

its so hard sometimes to listen to you...cause you sometimes just hurt me badly....til i couldn't breath...just wish that you could understand for once...walk in my shoes for a day...its not easy being me and its not easy being a girl..i know its not easy being a guy as wel...i know what you're going through...i know how it feels...i know all of it...how u ask? u already know the answer to this question...

just want you to know that no matter what you say or what you do...i wont give up on you...not that easily...after all that we had been through...i really..dont want it to end...and i know that you wont let me go either...i just hope that we could stop arguing just for a second...and just listen to our heartbeats...my heartbeat is the same as yours...cause we both love each other...we both want the same thing...thats why we are arguing....i dont know why..i dont knowhow...all i know that is everytime we argue my heart felt like it was tearing up inside...slowly its bleeding...bleeding with blood our sadness...the blood of the devil...

i love you dear...im sorry for everything that im not...please just stop everything now...all i want is you know...peace and quiet...with me...only me....with the begs of mc donalds fries...doing what we love...playing together..watching home movies...i want toi grow fat with you...i want to growold with you...i love you dear..and i dont want everything we had just end like this....i love u...relly relly much...so please babe dont screw this chance up...k?

stressed out - trust

this few months been crazy...i duno whats goin on and alot of things been happening so fast.. i cant catch up to any of it...new feelings and emotioins bloom within me...i feel the pain and sorrow..so deep,...that i cant even hide it anymore...old pains coming back at the time i really dont want it to..i feel so helpless..
ppl said i changed...but i myself didnt realize it..is it true? that i've change into someone im not? if not...then why are you all blaming me? cant u see im going through a lot? im just a normal teenager who obviously needs some comfort and maybe a lil attention..dont just leave me behin and not tellling me why...please dont do that,...i might not show a lot of love to the one im suppose to..but deep inside...i really really love u more than i ever did...i appreaciate u all more than i ever did...just stop judging me from the outside..please..although sometimes i act like its nothing..but deep down it matters to me alot..
for once i want someone to appreciate me for who i am...i sometimes act im strong and brave..but like i said..its just acting..im just a girl...i just dont want to let you worry bout me..if you want me to be independent then u have to believe what im doing..if u dont let me go now..i might never grow up...im a teenager going through teenage problems like evryone will...why cant you understand my needs? please give me a lil fate...one day i'll show u wat im capable of ...now its like a test to me...if now i dont succeed...just let me try until i reach my point...
i believe i can do it...now...i just need your trust...without all of ur fate...im nothing...so please....
working with stress behing my back.

bang bang tang [lollipop]

like every other girl, i too have an idol singer..it all started from last year may where i layed first sight on them on AEC. Here, let me introduce u to them...[lollipop]

they can act and sing very well...before they became actors/ singers, they went through alot of challenges, like reading long scrips, dancing, singing and even some comedy. Even though the road to success isnt easy, but they never had doubt and they never give up. this is what impressed me the most. Now im goin to tell you their personality 1 by 1.

Name:Liao Yi Ying(Wei Lian)

D.O.B:1985/10/07(Libra)

Age:22

Height:176cm

Weight:67kg

Interest:BasketBall,Swimming

Name:Yang Qi Yu(Xiao Yu)

D.O.B:1985/07/05(Cancer)

Age:22

Height:172cm

Weight:60kg

Interest:Playing guitar,sports

Name:Qiu Sheng Yi(Prince/Wang Zi)

Chinese name: 邱勝翊

D.O.B:1989/04/14(Aries)

Blood type: O

Age:18

Height:173cm

Weight:53kg

Interest:Basketball

Name:Liu Jun Wei(Ah Wei)

D.O.B:1985/10/15(Libra)

Age:22

Height:168cm

Weight:60kg

Interest:Dancing,watch movie

Name:Zhuang Hao Quan(Ao Quan/Owodog)

Chinese name: 莊濠全

D.O.B:1982/10/30(Scorpio)

Blood type: O

Age:24

Height:177cm

Weight:62kg

Interest:Drawing, Dancing

Name: Xiao Jie(Lil Jay/Brian)

Chinese name: 廖俊杰

D.O.B: 1986/9/25 (Libra)

Blood Type: A

Age: 22

Height: 174cm

Weight: 60.6kg

Interests: Dancing, Watch bang bang tang, play badminton

The had also released their first album in 2008. below is a bit bout their album.

Album: Na Li Pa

Artiste: Lollipop Bang Bang Tang

Company: EMI

Release Date: 28 December, 2007

Language: Mandarin

Album Information:Lollipop started off 2007 with their debut EP Colorful Lollipop, and now they're entering 2008 with their first full-length album! The past year has been a resounding success for the BBT boys as they extended their popularity from daily variety program Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang into the realm of music. The boys also tried out acting with the idol drama Brown Sugar Macchiato and took Hong Kong by storm. Though the six boys are now bonafide pop idols, their down-to earth personalities and goofy antics haven't changed one bit, a big reason why they've found such a dedicated fanbase in Taiwan and Hong Kong.Lollipop's latest project is the weekend variety program Na Li Pa, which is also the title of their new album. The album comes with ten new songs from owodog, A-wei, Xiao Yu, Xiao Jie, William, and Prince, ranging from mid-tempo ballads to dance numbers like first plug Yes. The boys participated in the songwriting process this time around, with Xiao Yu composing and Xiao Jie contributing lyics for "Among Us", a song about the group's experiences in the past year. Lollipop's new album comes as an exciting precursor to their first concert, which will be held at the Taipei Arena on January 26, 2008.

I hope u all will enjoy the details i gave here and please listen to their music or watch them in youtube. just type 'bang bang tang' ^^. ENJOY....

wasted all this while

I never tot this day would come....i wasted all my time and now all i have left are old pictures and some old memories...i miss my friends...my primary friends my childhood friends.....every single one of them...

it really had been sp long since we met or spoke or pm each other.....everything in secondary life is so hard now...sometime i just want to go back to the great old times..all those fun we had...but all of it lasted just for a moment...

seeing some of you goin to the same school and still having the time of your lifes really makes me regret at times...regret why i never follow the same path as you all.... regret why i never joined any of the reunion...haizz...

i feel so left out...im speechless... i duno wat else i can do...haizz..not that i dont like my secondary friends...i love them and all...but then i miss u guys to..

all i can say now...is that i miss u guys...sigh...

valentine

valentine day is around the corner as we speak...and a lot of ppl had bought presents for their valentine...and evry year...i end up presentless and dateless....not even a wish from my own valentine...><><><>