pain?

nowadays...stress keeps getting on to me..

especially when its the big year for me..

everything doesn't seem to go into place...

now...

all i need is just someone to go to and talk..

and just hang out...you get what i mean?

haizz.

why...why now? why only now i feel this way?

really tired of this..

i don;t even want to go to my work place anymore..

the so called happiest place i could be..

but now...i don;t even want to step a foot in....

i miss them all...

i really do..

but i keep having a thought that the longer i stay the harder it is for me to let go..

i need to focus on other things now..

like my family...

my studies....

and a lot more..

not to say im unhappy with the life i have now...

and im not complaining..

its just that..

im only a girl...a teenager that still need to make mistakes to learn..

and most importantly...

i'll get tired...

with a lot of things to hold back..

i have to be strong infront of family...especially for my parents..

i love them so so much...

i don;t want them to worry because of me..

i don't want them to fuss bout my problem,..

but i hope i could have someone to go to and talk to ..

but when that time came..

all i could do is...cry..

i know i sound like a cry baby..

but what can i do..

try holding everything inside..until you couldn't hold it back anymore..

and you just burst into tears..

its hard to put yourself back together.....

haiz...